Sigh... 8th days without seeing each other, and still counting.. missing our sweet moments together since the 1st second we were apart. i miss u Is! miss u sangat2. tonite was the 1st time i didnt decline your request for video call (did u realize tht?? =p), unfortunately this small town doesnt support the technology. sigh sigh..
now u must be sleeping soundly already as ure so tired (and i do understand that), however i so wish i culd hear ur voice at this moment =S
our maximum record being away from each other was 2 weeks. however this time it will be stretch to 4 weeks. huwaaa how are we going to survive this?? =( sorry Sayang, i know uve made a big sacrifice by giving me a surprise visit last week, but i culdnt do the same thing.. i hav checked the possibility, but the flight & bus timing arent suitable. i culd stay over at the girls in wely before catching a bus back to this town, but i dont want to treat their place like a motel and go there only for a stopover. theyve anticipated my next visit the morning i left a week ago =S
the worse thing is, how are we going to survive the even longer distance next year?? =( =(
p/s Cempaka's missing Is soo bad...
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Sour moments =(
Sayang.. lately kite asyik ada hambar moments aje.. kenapa ni..? bila I ingat2 balik..
Last Wednesday: I emo pasal hadiah yg u janjikan -> hehehee ok yg ni mmg I mintak maaf. Bukan sengaja niat I nak buat u pening, tp time tu I geram dgn condition yg u suruh (kiss u on the phone while Askar;yg time tu tgh emo & tak sporting dgn I, was just at the other side of the door) but then mcm nak tak nak je ckp psl hadiah misteri itu. However in the end, that was the best present I ever received =) =)
During the weekend, u were right here beside me and everything else doesn’t matter at all =) Kesiannn u, time ada financial problem pun tetap sampai ke Welly.. plus u never mentioned/complained about ur credit status until after our lovely weekend finished. Although it was strange that u didn’t want to hav breakfast coz ure stil ‘full’, but want to hav an early lunch pulak..? And pandai pulak bg alasan ‘shuld enjoy the msian delicacies while we’re @Welly’, rather thn going to the expensive western restaurant tht we normallly would go for dinner in Chch? Sayang, If only I knew earlier, I would’ve paid for every expense. I really truly would!
And then when im back in this dungeon on Monday, we talked about our future.. sighh as usual, we wont be able to reach a conclusion on the timing. We hang up with a sour feeling and I felt really shitty. But u called back after a while to patch things up. No wonder I love u so much =)
Again, either that night or the next night, I sparked an argument again. I requested u to sing for me, u refused and asked me to sing for u instead coz it’s always u who sang all this while. What??! Arguing about who to sing a song??! Seriously??! Yea, seriously.. sigh..what a waste isn’t it? The call ended after u asking me not to brought that subject up anymore if im not going to sing for u. fine. Sour goodnite again. No whispering sweet nothing, no sweet sentences, no muah2. Sigh.. when we hang up, I lay down in bed for a while, hoping that I’ll feel better soon. I dozed off for ~10mins, and woke up coz u called me back. =) to get & give a goodnite kiss. =)
And then today, sighh again?? how come it is always me tht triggered an issue?? I didn’t mean to upset u.. I only asked u to be visible on feedjit, so that I can see u ‘checking out’ my blog. It felt nice, to see u constantly appearing on feedjit before. But now not anymore coz u removed ur IP from it =s. Sorry if I teased u about constantly ‘stalking’ me in my blog before, but hey.. u teased me all the time and I didn’t take ‘precautions’ not to be teased again, rite? I enjoyed most of ur teasing.. it is funny and sweet when I reviewed them back. thus u shuld feel the same about mine as well.. I never meant to underestimate u, ever.. coz I love u, sayang. Your pain is my pain. But, ehemmm ur sillyness could be my kerekness. Hehehhehhh *evil laugh* =p
Emm.. and then we tried to talk about what we’re good at. Ure good with gestures and talking (perasan niiiiiiiii. Dia mengaku sendiriiii.wekkk =p). Yes I approved that =) Hmm but I failed to think of anything, spontaneously. Coz as u said, im good at writing rather than talking (hehehe alasannnn).
Then (I cant remember how) masuk psl I yg tak reti & xde masa nak masak. Lps kawen nnt, xnak makan luar selalu lah, xnak recycle meals lah, shuldnt expect u to understand & comply with my busyness lah.. sighhh…………. Time management. This is exactly what ive been constantly fearing about- without any solution so far. However it doesn’t help when my own bf raised the same issue. Tht only raised my worries & fear sky-high, and still, no solution. =(
sayangg… my priority is my family ok? When ure a part of my family, u’l also be my priority. I get ur point. I will learn to cook. I am,now. I will be more hardworking. I wil not let u starve. InsyaAllah, we wil work this out when the time comes. Make constant doa to Him, and believe in His love & mercy towards us. Just like the issue of when wil we get married. Theres no point stressing & arguing about it. If it can be fix now, u and I woudlve tried to fixed it. Lets not worry abt something tht we cant change now, the stress and the sour moments are not worth it. I enjoy being with u, let this feeling stays this way forever..
Uu.. dulu2 u penah ckp ‘biasalah, couple, mesti ada gaduh2’. Time tu i jwp tanakkk tanakkk. Skrg pun I stil nak tekankan yg i tak naaakkk..i xnk jd couple ‘biasa’.. I nk jd couple luarbiasa. yg xgaduh2.. kenapa kite kena ikut trend yg biasa tuu?? Walaupun our sour moments only last for less than a day, and usually less than 2hours, tp im still badly affected by it. I rasa gloomy.. xde smgt nak g keje.. frowning.. ish, tak suke!! U suka ke tengok i terseksa mcm ni? =S
Last Wednesday: I emo pasal hadiah yg u janjikan -> hehehee ok yg ni mmg I mintak maaf. Bukan sengaja niat I nak buat u pening, tp time tu I geram dgn condition yg u suruh (kiss u on the phone while Askar;yg time tu tgh emo & tak sporting dgn I, was just at the other side of the door) but then mcm nak tak nak je ckp psl hadiah misteri itu. However in the end, that was the best present I ever received =) =)
During the weekend, u were right here beside me and everything else doesn’t matter at all =) Kesiannn u, time ada financial problem pun tetap sampai ke Welly.. plus u never mentioned/complained about ur credit status until after our lovely weekend finished. Although it was strange that u didn’t want to hav breakfast coz ure stil ‘full’, but want to hav an early lunch pulak..? And pandai pulak bg alasan ‘shuld enjoy the msian delicacies while we’re @Welly’, rather thn going to the expensive western restaurant tht we normallly would go for dinner in Chch? Sayang, If only I knew earlier, I would’ve paid for every expense. I really truly would!
And then when im back in this dungeon on Monday, we talked about our future.. sighh as usual, we wont be able to reach a conclusion on the timing. We hang up with a sour feeling and I felt really shitty. But u called back after a while to patch things up. No wonder I love u so much =)
Again, either that night or the next night, I sparked an argument again. I requested u to sing for me, u refused and asked me to sing for u instead coz it’s always u who sang all this while. What??! Arguing about who to sing a song??! Seriously??! Yea, seriously.. sigh..what a waste isn’t it? The call ended after u asking me not to brought that subject up anymore if im not going to sing for u. fine. Sour goodnite again. No whispering sweet nothing, no sweet sentences, no muah2. Sigh.. when we hang up, I lay down in bed for a while, hoping that I’ll feel better soon. I dozed off for ~10mins, and woke up coz u called me back. =) to get & give a goodnite kiss. =)
And then today, sighh again?? how come it is always me tht triggered an issue?? I didn’t mean to upset u.. I only asked u to be visible on feedjit, so that I can see u ‘checking out’ my blog. It felt nice, to see u constantly appearing on feedjit before. But now not anymore coz u removed ur IP from it =s. Sorry if I teased u about constantly ‘stalking’ me in my blog before, but hey.. u teased me all the time and I didn’t take ‘precautions’ not to be teased again, rite? I enjoyed most of ur teasing.. it is funny and sweet when I reviewed them back. thus u shuld feel the same about mine as well.. I never meant to underestimate u, ever.. coz I love u, sayang. Your pain is my pain. But, ehemmm ur sillyness could be my kerekness. Hehehhehhh *evil laugh* =p
Emm.. and then we tried to talk about what we’re good at. Ure good with gestures and talking (perasan niiiiiiiii. Dia mengaku sendiriiii.wekkk =p). Yes I approved that =) Hmm but I failed to think of anything, spontaneously. Coz as u said, im good at writing rather than talking (hehehe alasannnn).
Then (I cant remember how) masuk psl I yg tak reti & xde masa nak masak. Lps kawen nnt, xnak makan luar selalu lah, xnak recycle meals lah, shuldnt expect u to understand & comply with my busyness lah.. sighhh…………. Time management. This is exactly what ive been constantly fearing about- without any solution so far. However it doesn’t help when my own bf raised the same issue. Tht only raised my worries & fear sky-high, and still, no solution. =(
sayangg… my priority is my family ok? When ure a part of my family, u’l also be my priority. I get ur point. I will learn to cook. I am,now. I will be more hardworking. I wil not let u starve. InsyaAllah, we wil work this out when the time comes. Make constant doa to Him, and believe in His love & mercy towards us. Just like the issue of when wil we get married. Theres no point stressing & arguing about it. If it can be fix now, u and I woudlve tried to fixed it. Lets not worry abt something tht we cant change now, the stress and the sour moments are not worth it. I enjoy being with u, let this feeling stays this way forever..
Uu.. dulu2 u penah ckp ‘biasalah, couple, mesti ada gaduh2’. Time tu i jwp tanakkk tanakkk. Skrg pun I stil nak tekankan yg i tak naaakkk..i xnk jd couple ‘biasa’.. I nk jd couple luarbiasa. yg xgaduh2.. kenapa kite kena ikut trend yg biasa tuu?? Walaupun our sour moments only last for less than a day, and usually less than 2hours, tp im still badly affected by it. I rasa gloomy.. xde smgt nak g keje.. frowning.. ish, tak suke!! U suka ke tengok i terseksa mcm ni? =S
Self-Analysis
What im good at..
1)Keeping u on track with study & religion
2)Making u cair with my writings in this blog
3)Being ur diary by listening to ur celoteh everyday
4)Stay by your side, no matter what
5)Ur professional photographer
6)Ur eating-buddy
7)Perengek and pemalu?
8)Golek2 with u? (ehem… this is much much later in life la tapii..wekkk)
Hmm that’s what (I think) I have achieved so far. Any comment/input sayang? =)
Btw, i was updating my other blog when we had our 'sour-moment' this afternoon, sighhh. dont want to tell u just now coz dont want to keep u waiting anxiously. and was at the same time browsing this song, coz i wanna dedicate it to u. enjoy the lyric =).not the video clip & tv series thou,coz it's more abt mom-daughter relationship, hehee~
1)Keeping u on track with study & religion
2)Making u cair with my writings in this blog
3)Being ur diary by listening to ur celoteh everyday
4)Stay by your side, no matter what
5)Ur professional photographer
6)Ur eating-buddy
7)Perengek and pemalu?
8)Golek2 with u? (ehem… this is much much later in life la tapii..wekkk)
Hmm that’s what (I think) I have achieved so far. Any comment/input sayang? =)
Btw, i was updating my other blog when we had our 'sour-moment' this afternoon, sighhh. dont want to tell u just now coz dont want to keep u waiting anxiously. and was at the same time browsing this song, coz i wanna dedicate it to u. enjoy the lyric =).not the video clip & tv series thou,coz it's more abt mom-daughter relationship, hehee~
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Mimpi Ngeri =p
honey.. how was ur day? my day wasnt too good today.. sbb last night i had a bad confusing dream, and i want to talk to u about it, but u keep dera me by choosing to watch ocean 11 instead of calling me.. huwaaaaaaa jahat!! =o
ok, the dream was like this.. i live in this big old hostel-like accommodation, and there were a few faces that i knew back from high school living in the same building. also living there (but not in the same room of course) is my boyfriend. guess who?? the voice sounds identically like yours (yay!) but... not the face! OMG! and this person was saying all those lovey-dovey stuff (yes both the malay and english phrase, hihi~) we ehem2 recently seems to enjoy conveying to each other..
what was my reaction?? i was like.. hummm... he sounds sooo like my Hunny Bunny, but he doesnt look familiar at all.... the worse part was, he wasnt attractive!!! bluerggghhhh~~ huhuhuhuuuu camane niii?? the only reason i stayed cool in the dream was bcoz i recognize ur voice.. huhu, sorry hunny i DID 'menduakan' u in my dream last nite, coz i had to respond to his lovey-dovey, kan?? but seriously, i didnt mean what i say at all.. i was like... huh?? do i hav to say this??? jahat ke i ha?
huhu... when i give a good thought about it, i reckon the reason tht i only got ur voice visited my dream bcoz in reality, that is the case.. =s we had talked for hours on the phone but havent really enjoyed each other's presence, thanks to my training schedule. huhuhu~ and when i WAS around chch, there's also other commitmentS that i had to attend to, and i guess our recent time together (last 2 weeks) turned out bad becoz of my time constraint and my bad time management. =( im sorry i'd dissappointed u honey.. as i mentioned b4, if only i culd turned back times, i would hav tried to make that day the most perfect day for us =(
and also a good brownie point for u is that (hihihiii kena la pujuk lepas berlaku curang dalam mimpi kann), u're obviously the opposite side of 'unattractive', bak kata my besmate, "good-looking". haaa kembang2!!! =p i also realize that whatever i says/promised to u, it feels right =) coz it felt sooo wrong when i said t0 that stranger..
i cayang u! =)
ok, the dream was like this.. i live in this big old hostel-like accommodation, and there were a few faces that i knew back from high school living in the same building. also living there (but not in the same room of course) is my boyfriend. guess who?? the voice sounds identically like yours (yay!) but... not the face! OMG! and this person was saying all those lovey-dovey stuff (yes both the malay and english phrase, hihi~) we ehem2 recently seems to enjoy conveying to each other..
what was my reaction?? i was like.. hummm... he sounds sooo like my Hunny Bunny, but he doesnt look familiar at all.... the worse part was, he wasnt attractive!!! bluerggghhhh~~ huhuhuhuuuu camane niii?? the only reason i stayed cool in the dream was bcoz i recognize ur voice.. huhu, sorry hunny i DID 'menduakan' u in my dream last nite, coz i had to respond to his lovey-dovey, kan?? but seriously, i didnt mean what i say at all.. i was like... huh?? do i hav to say this??? jahat ke i ha?
huhu... when i give a good thought about it, i reckon the reason tht i only got ur voice visited my dream bcoz in reality, that is the case.. =s we had talked for hours on the phone but havent really enjoyed each other's presence, thanks to my training schedule. huhuhu~ and when i WAS around chch, there's also other commitmentS that i had to attend to, and i guess our recent time together (last 2 weeks) turned out bad becoz of my time constraint and my bad time management. =( im sorry i'd dissappointed u honey.. as i mentioned b4, if only i culd turned back times, i would hav tried to make that day the most perfect day for us =(
and also a good brownie point for u is that (hihihiii kena la pujuk lepas berlaku curang dalam mimpi kann), u're obviously the opposite side of 'unattractive', bak kata my besmate, "good-looking". haaa kembang2!!! =p i also realize that whatever i says/promised to u, it feels right =) coz it felt sooo wrong when i said t0 that stranger..
i cayang u! =)
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