Sour moments =(

Sayang.. lately kite asyik ada hambar moments aje.. kenapa ni..? bila I ingat2 balik..

Last Wednesday: I emo pasal hadiah yg u janjikan -> hehehee ok yg ni mmg I mintak maaf. Bukan sengaja niat I nak buat u pening, tp time tu I geram dgn condition yg u suruh (kiss u on the phone while Askar;yg time tu tgh emo & tak sporting dgn I, was just at the other side of the door) but then mcm nak tak nak je ckp psl hadiah misteri itu. However in the end, that was the best present I ever received =) =)

During the weekend, u were right here beside me and everything else doesn’t matter at all =) Kesiannn u, time ada financial problem pun tetap sampai ke Welly.. plus u never mentioned/complained about ur credit status until after our lovely weekend finished. Although it was strange that u didn’t want to hav breakfast coz ure stil ‘full’, but want to hav an early lunch pulak..? And pandai pulak bg alasan ‘shuld enjoy the msian delicacies while we’re @Welly’, rather thn going to the expensive western restaurant tht we normallly would go for dinner in Chch? Sayang, If only I knew earlier, I would’ve paid for every expense. I really truly would!

And then when im back in this dungeon on Monday, we talked about our future.. sighh as usual, we wont be able to reach a conclusion on the timing. We hang up with a sour feeling and I felt really shitty. But u called back after a while to patch things up. No wonder I love u so much =)

Again, either that night or the next night, I sparked an argument again. I requested u to sing for me, u refused and asked me to sing for u instead coz it’s always u who sang all this while. What??! Arguing about who to sing a song??! Seriously??! Yea, seriously.. sigh..what a waste isn’t it? The call ended after u asking me not to brought that subject up anymore if im not going to sing for u. fine. Sour goodnite again. No whispering sweet nothing, no sweet sentences, no muah2. Sigh.. when we hang up, I lay down in bed for a while, hoping that I’ll feel better soon. I dozed off for ~10mins, and woke up coz u called me back. =) to get & give a goodnite kiss. =)

And then today, sighh again?? how come it is always me tht triggered an issue?? I didn’t mean to upset u.. I only asked u to be visible on feedjit, so that I can see u ‘checking out’ my blog. It felt nice, to see u constantly appearing on feedjit before. But now not anymore coz u removed ur IP from it =s. Sorry if I teased u about constantly ‘stalking’ me in my blog before, but hey.. u teased me all the time and I didn’t take ‘precautions’ not to be teased again, rite? I enjoyed most of ur teasing.. it is funny and sweet when I reviewed them back. thus u shuld feel the same about mine as well.. I never meant to underestimate u, ever.. coz I love u, sayang. Your pain is my pain. But, ehemmm ur sillyness could be my kerekness. Hehehhehhh *evil laugh* =p

Emm.. and then we tried to talk about what we’re good at. Ure good with gestures and talking (perasan niiiiiiiii. Dia mengaku sendiriiii.wekkk =p). Yes I approved that =) Hmm but I failed to think of anything, spontaneously. Coz as u said, im good at writing rather than talking (hehehe alasannnn).

Then (I cant remember how) masuk psl I yg tak reti & xde masa nak masak. Lps kawen nnt, xnak makan luar selalu lah, xnak recycle meals lah, shuldnt expect u to understand & comply with my busyness lah.. sighhh…………. Time management. This is exactly what ive been constantly fearing about- without any solution so far. However it doesn’t help when my own bf raised the same issue. Tht only raised my worries & fear sky-high, and still, no solution. =(

sayangg… my priority is my family ok? When ure a part of my family, u’l also be my priority. I get ur point. I will learn to cook. I am,now. I will be more hardworking. I wil not let u starve. InsyaAllah, we wil work this out when the time comes. Make constant doa to Him, and believe in His love & mercy towards us. Just like the issue of when wil we get married. Theres no point stressing & arguing about it. If it can be fix now, u and I woudlve tried to fixed it. Lets not worry abt something tht we cant change now, the stress and the sour moments are not worth it. I enjoy being with u, let this feeling stays this way forever..

Uu.. dulu2 u penah ckp ‘biasalah, couple, mesti ada gaduh2’. Time tu i jwp tanakkk tanakkk. Skrg pun I stil nak tekankan yg i tak naaakkk..i xnk jd couple ‘biasa’.. I nk jd couple luarbiasa. yg xgaduh2.. kenapa kite kena ikut trend yg biasa tuu?? Walaupun our sour moments only last for less than a day, and usually less than 2hours, tp im still badly affected by it. I rasa gloomy.. xde smgt nak g keje.. frowning.. ish, tak suke!! U suka ke tengok i terseksa mcm ni? =S